Yeah, I do understand. And it can't have been easy to go back to it.

On a side note, almost every man 40 years old or older I've spoken to has said, "I don't know how the heck I survived, with all the insane crap I did." Compare that to how auto insurance companies lower the premiums for men on their 26th birthday. From about that point on guys are less likely to take such chances.

I guess there's a reason why women almost always have longer life expectancies than men. :)